This blog, like the passage of the novel I'm writing about, took way longer than I would have liked. There were real life issues that played a factor in the delay. However, it was mostly getting the facts straight in my head. Also, I wanted to have a couple sketches of my guys that were presentable enough to share. Each took me only 30 minutes. I do that to make my speed and accuracy improve. These will be reworked sometime later. Please, be kind.
The writers I know live for that moment when the characters take over the story and it writes itself. This can be magical and loads of fun. However, there are times when characters can veer off in a direction that I had not planned in the least. This can be exciting as well but in a 'will I ever get this book finished' kind of way. In this particular case, I was writing a situation in which Andreas is a bit afraid of Darius harming him with his size and power during their lovemaking while distracted by a very serious problem. Darius would never intentionally harm Andreas. However, there is an unprecedented situation stressing him. It's understandable for him to be distracted. Meanwhile, Andreas is determined to serve Darius in every way he has pledged.
I've written many a tense BDSM scene. This should have been like falling off a log (why is that a simile). But no. It was a huge struggle trying to make this scene work. Finally, I realized it just wasn't falling into place. I couldn't figure out why at the time, but I had to get through this scene to continue with the rest of the book. Thus, I decided to break the passage up into questions whose answers would produce pages.
What would Andreas do once he decided he needed to prepare more carefully for being with Darius
What happened for the first part of the scene of Darius arriving home was something completely unplanned. I decided that Lexo, Andreas' butler would play music from the nightclub he'd called home to relax his Lord. The recording of the house band was a housewarming gift from his longtime friend, Hector. It had been some time since Andreas had just hung out at Club Zero and danced. So after he dresses beautifully and sensually for Darius, he decides to dance:
Darius was not surprised when his driver informed him that Andreas was still on the first floor of the maisonette. He was arriving home earlier than his norm. He wouldn't have been surprised if his Dami was still bathing. It was of no matter to Darius. He was so weary from the burdens of his day that he would have gladly climbed into the bath with him clothes and all. Even if he didn't go that far, it would be a relief to be away from prying eyes with his beautiful cheeky one and a stiff drink.
The music was a surprise when Darius opened the entrance off the elevator. It was loud enough that his arrival went unnoticed. The Cosi did not mind. He was mesmerized by the vision in the living room. Andreas was gloriously attired for service and dancing with his eyes closed near the fireplace. It wasn't a sexual dance as Andreas was unaware of anyone watching, but it was sensual. Andreas couldn't help that part of his nature. It seemed that Andreas couldn't help but make Darius feel better about the worst of days. He found he was elated watching that guileless performance.
Andreas opened his eyes as Darius was within arms reach of him. He smiled devilishly before dancing toward him. He took the case away and put it aside before unbuttoning Darius' coat. He then danced around to take it off. Andreas placed the coat on the sofa with the case. He then danced around Darius to playfully embraced him from behind and place his chin on one broad shoulder with a saucy smile.
“May I have this dance?” Andreas asked.
Darius gave him a sidelong look before grabbing one of the hands at his waist. He turned in time with the music while twirling Andreas skillfully until he was in his arms. They danced closely through a complex though sensual routine in perfect rhythm with the music. Andreas met his gaze easily while they danced. Mischief danced with happiness in those green-gold eyes. A smile played at his lush lips. Darius knew that expression. Andreas was pleased to see him. Despite the unrelenting stress of that day, Darius found himself smiling a small smile. That made his Dami sparkle at him. As the song ended, the volume of the music lowered. Lexo approached with a warm smile.
“Good evening, milord,” he said. “Your you like wine down here or in the Penthouse?
“What smells so good?” Darius asked.
“Roast leg of arnion,” Lexo replied.
Darius was elated. He hoisted Andreas over one shoulder.
“We'll have wine in the Penthouse,” he replied as he turned to bound up the stairs.
“Very good, milord,” Lexo replied with a chuckle. “I'll send your things up.”
Meanwhile, Andreas was loudly informing Darius that he knew how to walk up stairs on his own. There was no anger in his voice. In fact, he was laughing in between the volley of epithets. Like holding Andreas in any fashion, having him over the shoulder was a delight. That taut body felt good against his hands. All of those workouts had made him sleek and elegantly muscled. That firm and perfectly shaped ass was so tempting, it was all Darius could do to keep his hands from being down the Dami's pants at all times. And as always, his scent was an intoxicating mix of a spiciness mingled with the subtle scents of the soaps he favored. Even his struggles were sexy, because of his body and the fact that he was very hard. Though he gave thought to pounding that tight ass properly, the Cosi had something else in mind for the time being.
Andreas was sputtering by the time he was set on his feet in the dining room.
“I have never...” Andreas began.
Darius was not interested in speaking just then, so he cut the tirade off by grabbing Andreas' hair at the back of his head and kissing him. It was a deep, voracious kiss made all the more satisfying when Andreas' knees buckled. He didn't even have enough strength of will to try to hold Darius. He moaned helplessly as Darius ended the kiss.
They don't get to the bedroom just then. The food smells too good. Also, I tend to be a bit of a tease. I apologize for nothing. Sexual tension is part of the entire delicious package. This was easy to write. There were points in the plot that needed to be expanded a little. Andreas gets a chance to really see how stressed Darius is. And there is a really fun bit where Darius orders Andreas to explain why he's been blushing all through dinner. That sets off the super jealous and possessive Seme so keenly that they don't make it to dessert. Poor Andreas quickly finds himself shackled up in bed with a stressed out and jealous man who is huge and intent on reminding him what that large erection really feels like.
That encounter is physically intense and really steamy, but I found that Darius was in no mood to play bondage games. He wants to get down to business. It was irksome as I had plans on drawing that scene out that were entirely different than what ended up on the page. I worked the ambivalence of the character for games into the actual scene. This reluctance will also factor into later chapters where he must embrace the role he plays in that lifestyle when they are in a social setting. There will be some underlying tension over that at parties and such that will be difficult for Darius at a time when he is under heavy scrutiny and everyone is waiting for him to lose it. So, the scene worked for the book's dramatic tension.
Darius was careful shackling Andreas and careful removing them; however, the vigorous coupling did strain his muscles enough to need some attention. The injury keeps Andreas from working out for a day or two but not enough to not want more of the same. That scene left me in a strong place for the love scenes that will come later. I think the writing would have come more easily if I had trusted where Darius and Andreas were leading me. I have an outline on paper and know exactly where the book will end. However, I've learned that I also have to be flexible enough to know when I need to change my tactics. I'll even have to abandon a few along the way and use them in another story. That happens sometimes. All in all, I'm pleased with the scene and pleased with the pace and direction of Esnared V 3 itself.